Last Friday, I woke up at 930 am after three hours of sleep. I had a really bad diahorrea which lasted for a fantabulous good two days. And to my pleasant surprise, I lost a kg and my weight hit a record low of 40.9kg. But, as usual, after consuming newton circus' chee cheong fun (please don't, DON'T ever patronise the stall), coconut and 7 sticks of satay, and loads of other fattening oily unhealthy food, they, in unison have taken a toll on my weight. I am back to 43kg, and am of course, really sad about it.

Anyhow, I think I disgressed. I spent the afternoon at Rebecca's house baking nothing. Haha. Not quite. We were supposed (and I stress on this word) to bake some muffins. Some general comments about her place: I will NEVER EVER want to live there! It has so many ants! You see ants everywhere. From the living room to the kitchen to the tables to the floor to the door. wherever. You get my drift. Thank goodness her room is ant-free at the moment! That was my only little dungeon which I could hide in.

Remembered her bag was once infested with ants when she came to class. Imagine the horror!!!! I was so freaked out, and am still freaking out at the thought of it. And hey, that resulted in me not sleeping in class for the entire day cause I was so afraid they'd crawl up my sleeve and my toes and my uniform and my hair. Eeekkkss!! Hahahaha! Okay, sorry. :(

So i decided to upload a few photos for some memories' sake.


This was our useless recipe. Raisin Muffins. Oh yes, now I remember. That was the exact name of our muffins.

This was attempt number one. The first layer, i.e.: the skin of the muffin was edible. Above average. Smooth. BUT, as you can see, the filling was too wet. Soaked and filled to the brim with a milky stench. Gluey. You'll basically puke after eating it. Oh. Too sweet! Jocelyn's fault. She's a bad baker, that you must understand.

So obviously, you know where the muffin went after that. Along with the rubbish, it must make the bin its home as well. Whose fault? There's only an answer to that! That jaws lah! Aiya. Always act like some pro. Haha! So master chefs, Audrey and Rebecca came to her rescue after that. Okay. So here goes.

COMPARE AND CONTRAST attempt one and two. Now with my expertise, the filling was of course better. But I wonder why the skin didn't want to rise as nicely as the first. I thought and pondered hard. It HAD to be the recipe! I read it several times, thoroughly of course, and even made sure nothing went wrong. Yet, the filling was soaked through with milk and butter and all sorts of mad stuff! Okay. Imagine how angry I was! I thought of sueing the person who wrote it. Even the batter looked weird and wet. Spot the alliteration?! Yes, it helps me to better emphasize my point.

Now now. You see, the three of us are very persevering and determined sorta people. So. The last resort, and the last straw- CHANGE the recipe! Whose idea? Of course all credits to Rebecca and I! Or is it Rebecca's idea? Never mind. Anyway, my point is.. it was definitely not Jocelyn's. Haha! We improvised and made it our own (you know basically how we change Shakespeare's works here and there so he can transcend all boundaries kinda thing?)

Similarly, I was hoping my muffins could transcend all heat and waveforms and boundaries. Never did I expect them to turn out like albinos! They were as white as snow. Like some schneemann in Schneeland! Auf dem Stuhl sitzen. Haha! I thought the muffins reminded me very much of some white dalmation with lotsa poker dots.

This is what improvisation can do to you. HAHA!

I was praying and hoping that at least these albino muffins were up to some decent standard so that we could eat them. I was even thinking of bringing some home to share it with my friends. Meaning- forcing Elizabeth to eat it on Saturday. Haha!

I took a deep breath. Sliced open the muffins.

So did the quality turn out well? Hmm. I shan't comment on that. But i'll show you something instead. Maybe this will give you the answer.

This is Jocelyn, ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls. Jaws aka I-fry-salty-long-beans-in-black-sauce-soup. She looked rather elated as she served herself with a serving of Jacob Cream Biscuit. Courtesy of Rebecca's home.

THE END

Just finished an hour long conversation with my dad! I'm so, so glad for him even though he can get quite long winded at times. I was basically updating him on my trip and telling him which stuff I've already settled and have not settled and my rough itenerary. As the concerned dad, he was telling me to avoid any late night outs in London because racism is predominant there this and that. Haha! As the logic goes... Which father isn't protective of his daughter eh?

But thinking back on the conversation really makes me laugh. The highlight of it all: Believe it OR not: ALWAYS GIVE WAY TO ELIZABETH! hahaha! that's like the joke of the day! And he gave me at least more than ten reasons WHY AND HOW I SHOULD give way to her! LOL! I wonder if I'll eventually 'heed' that advice. So nonsensical! Hahaaha!
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I can't hear, still. I live in a blocked world.
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I can't wait for tomorrow! Going somewhere exciting. It's a secret. I am not telling.
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I want my family back in Singapore. I can't find someone to irritate at the moment. My place seems so much quieter without my brother.
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I have very lovely parents. My mum's getting a wind breaker for me. My dad's getting more memory cards for me. I love them so much!
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I can't wait to fly.
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I promise. Elizabeth's home is one of THE most fattening haven on earth!
It has been yet another 'eat-and-eat-and-eat' day for me again. It would have been O.K. if we played tennis this morning but noooo.... We were all too tired. So tennis was cancelled, and we feasted on fattening food for lunch. Courtesy of her dad who bought all the yummilious food from abroad.

I reckon it really takes sheer determination and lotsa SELF DISCIPLINE for a food lover to live in her home. I bet if I were to camp there for a week, I may put on like a kg or two. Haha!
So let's recap what I ate today.

+ Fruit Nuts
+ Some yummilious cheese thing (she tricked me into believing that they were fat free. what nonsense!)
+ oooooooohhhhhh and the irresistible SARDINES in (ta da..) Olive Oil! sigh.
+ One piece of raisin bread
+ Half a packet of potato chips. Courtesy of her brother who went down to buy for himself but greedy elizabeth snatched it away.
+ A packet of prawn-lime potato chips from I don't know where. It's damn nice. I finished half.
+ 2 Sweets
+ 1 pear

And when I came home,
I ate a whole plate of steam meat, tofus, 20 packets of seaweeds, 1 pear, and a damn big fattening yumilious dumpling from crystal jade. It was, um.., let's see now, too good to resist.

I'm perpetually a victim of food and cravings. Argh argh! If I were to go for a buffet tomorrow, I think I would seriously put on another kg. I've been eating so much ever since the holidays started. Life's always good with food! (: ten smiles to that!

I know I've an AWESOME God!

Thank You so much for everything. The week has been superbly fantabulous for me.
And I predict I will have an even greater one next week! (:

Come to think of it, I haven't really thanked Him for allowing all the europe plans I've made to go so smoothly. Firstly, it's really not cheap to travel to so many countries. Liz and I were working out the amount of S$ we should exchange.. And (drum rolls).. 500 Sing to Pounds, 1000 Sing to Euros, and probably about 120 Sing to Francs. If you do the math, it sums up to a total of $1650 (and still counting). In other words, I have more or less emptied my bank account. But my mummy's like the greatest being on earth. She's willing to lend me some money and she's gonna get me a windbreaker from Shanghai (I hope). Yea, at least that helps me to cut cost. It really isn't easy trying to fork out that much since I had barely $4000 in my account previously.
But I really THANK God from deep within for taking care of the financial aspect. It'll somewhat be settled soon. And I guess, at the end of the day, I don't really have to fret about not having enough money for accomodation or meals or sightseeing. All credits to Him and of course, my parents! Love them so much! They're like really supportive of me, and I probably won't be able to enjoy this much. I wouldnt even have the opportunity to study Deutsch there. So like thanks so much!

Secondly, I confirmed my return trip ticket two nights ago. I managed to get a seat on board SQ (erm..) on 14July. This means.. I will be taking the same flight back as Liz. Yay! At least I know I will not be stranded in some mad Frankfurt hauptbahnof or some airport or im park alone. haha!! I'm so glad for the company. you bet I'm very, I mean, very very delighted. Okay. Not exactly *very* grateful for her company lah, but still, it's better than nothing. At least, I know I can count on her and to think of it... She's okay lah. So yuppers! I am happy! ((:

The planning's going quite smoothly. There're hardly any hiccups (or am I speaking too early?). I must say the both of us are cooperating quite well. Better than expected. Much better, in fact. We even planned a list of what to bring there together.. Which is of course, very surprising. Haha, yes, I thought she would have deemed packing to be the easiest thing and wouldn't be willing to help me out. hahah! Oh well. And yup, we are en route to settling some last minute london stuff. Paris= 95% settled. Yupper De Do Da Dey! Thank God Thank God!

I've also 'more or less' understood how the GlobalRoam 108 works already. I can call home! Yay! Did some 'research' on the entire thing. Asked around. Got some information here and there. Overall, I have a much clearer picture now. Great! Thank God for being able to call back! I love hearing people's voices! Selected people only lah. If you want, you can always ask me if you're in *that* list ornot.

AND! A super duper big Smile to my cousin! He's so sweet. Offered to bring me to get my backpack in Lavender on an early Saturday morning! I mean, that's something I will probably NEVER do. not now. not in life. Volunteer myself early in the morning?!?! It just sounds alien to me! Was really surprised when he wanted to bring me to get stuff and recommend me things to buy and have lunch with me. Woah, I didn't know my cousin cared this much for me. Haha! So apart from a Super Great God, Super Great Parents, I have a Super Great Cousin too! LOL!

On top of my trip, I managed to eat some fingerlicking crabs, watched the Da Vinci Code (now, I really DON'T see a point in not wanting to watch because it 'might be against your' religion. ahh! it's only fiction. you don't get persuaded so easily? do you? plus, the movie aint all that convincing. not even half as convincing as the book if you ask me. so yea. it doesn't do dan brown's work justice. talk about it another time), gave math tuition, stuff like that last week. Did lotsa enjoyable things.

I'm looking forward to the next week (tomorrow, tomorrow, you're only a day away), and the following week. Haha! Yea, my last two weeks are gonna be quite interesting, I hope. Its peak- next week. Then I suppose it'll get suckier and suckier till I leave. HAha. Whatever.

But still, I wanna thank God! Cause God is sooooo good!
And... God, with all his richness, bought me some heavenly kinder bueno surprise today. I loved it! Thanks!

Mine. I stood on a weighing scale today. I put on weight. Great. Right.
I've been more spendthrift as well. I'm spending more than what I earn at the moment on food and entertainment. Spoardic urges aint good I must say. I usually succumb to my hunger and fingerlicking food. Arggh.

I'm really broke. I'm begging for a job. But I've no time for one. So I'm living off my savings. Dreads! I still have to spend so much more on other stuff. For entertainment and travelling purposes. Helfen mir, bitte!

Okay I had better stop it. It's getting too whiny. Tsuechs!

i'm travelling on time's wing's chariot. sure enough, i've passed many splendid tourist attractions. there're so many events which i'm counting down to. haha! some interesting, some not so interesting. but anyway, since i'm counting down.. 17 more days to paris! heeehaaa!

the Great Singapore Sale begins next friday. late night shopping. 11pm and beyond. anyone?

in 20 days' time. (:

but i HAVE NOT:
- gone shopping for my trip. no backpacks, no windbreaker, no shoes.
- booked the hostels. having no place to stay at the moment. ich muess im park schlafen.
- bought the london vistor pass! no discounts and privileges for me then.
- had my fair share of fun? *SOS!!!* where are the food expeditions? the sun? the sand? the beach?
- checked out the IDD rates. confused about the different rates and plans, more like it. confusion is NOT my way of life.
- bought euros and pounds! i'm still waiting for the exchange rate to fall. sadly, i wish i were going to the US instead. i would rush to change S$500 to US$ today! yeppers, after the whooping fall of the US dollar. if only something like that could happen to the euro or pounds.
- saved enough money.
- gotten my flu jab.
- thought through what i should bring along for my trip. i'm really clueless and would probably overlook nitty gritty details.
- planned my itenary in london and paris with liz because she's working oh so hard at the moment.
- seen my detailed itenary for europe.
- returned library books.
- cherished my time in singapore.

on the contrary,
i HAVE:
- worked so damn hard. yet, i am significantly poorer. simply put, worse off. economic inequality!
- written more essays apart from those that i've done for my literature modules! (still not completed!)
- thought about more math problems.
- put on some weight (not much. but still...)

the only enjoyable things i did were:
- eating sashimi at sakae
- learning more about london and the opening hours of its tourist attractions (haha!)
- swimming
- going out with my secondary school people after the exams.
- celebrated mother's day with my family

what a life! haha! but i'm happy!
exams ended on the 28th. after three entire weeks of free time.. this is all that i've really done.

the uncertainty, which is primarily defined by geographical boundaries exudes a certain kind of obscurity and beauty. it is the same uncertainty which enthralls me.